Entry after a super long long long time. I guess its due.
So many new experiences. Being a cunning linguist ;) with le brits and holding myself back, and saying adieu to the old and going to japan and yet still being cynical all at once.
Well at the point in my life where I am just increasing dulaned because reality is a hard diamond that shines so stark, you cannot avoid its heat in your eye.
Graduation scares me, where I am going with Britts scares me, yet I am drawn to change and moving faster because I have no anchor.
No one, no definite iron purpose, nothing.
I realize I sound like a petulant child teenager hybrid thing but its too painful to grow up. But I was never really innocent anyway.
I refuse to be adrift. I am gonna steer my own course even if its hard to build my own ship.
Because we all have to walk away.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UVNT4wvIGY
Somebody that i used to know, let the regrets greet you as you enter.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4KVVCHeHKXM
Warm, wintry desire
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABzh6hTYpb8&ob=av3e
“Yea yea its okay, i tie my hands up to the chair so I dont fall that way”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8J8n9R8rnB8
Wild flag-Romance
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GdgEXaF2sk
We have got to take cover, brother.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjKtbCx3piM
The beat and the pulse.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a4QQ7HYYdWw
All that i am is a river, the river is always my home.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KCg_QEHtkY
Winter winds
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HO1OV5B_JDw
lets play some video games
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IaRKTubYpyw&feature=relmfu
bread and butter
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=onDh4P1cE2E
thats why i walked away, cos 99 problems but a bitch aint one.
Space and Control
Sliding towards ice that warms the wit,
A silence curled beneath fiery feet
Let’s wreck the random, and wrestle them all
just for exhaustion that never called.
Its where all the sinners lie,
between iron lips that never cry.
Toss about in the burning hay,
close those eyes and forget to pray.
Hold still in that heated bower,
taste the irony,and its color.
Gay Angels: What my eventual Glee Pokemon team is going to look like →
Ninetales named Brittany
- … Don’t judge me. Brittany is a hidden, empathic genius and Ninetales is smart enough to be given psychic type characteristics. So there.Arcanine named Santana
- “Arcanine has been depicted to stash food (such as Pecha Berries) in the voluminous fur of its mane.” In…
Its just there.
You are the only person who was able to draw me out of my mind, because I lived in your laughter. You always said we were “brain twins” and all I could feel was the warmth of your smile against my skin. He was the sun, but you are the melodious morning that breaks the night.
You were my best friend, but you gave up like all the others. Unlike all the others, you made promises.So many, that were so beautiful to listen and too tragic to keep. I tried my best, but I know my fears and caustic remarks and my games pushed you away.
Am I a shadow to you? A flicker when you listen to Michael Jackson, watch a certain bitchy lesbian cheerleader or see Darren on glee? Will you hear me when you know Drarry and listen to them heave?
Im trying to leave.Leave the fucking sauna of longing, and before I freeze myself in regret. I dont know what Im doing, all I know is I have to get through each day without breaking or annoying the shit out of our friends.
Sometimes, I give up. I would sell it all, just to be where we were again. The days of sweet nothings, and lack of hesitation, the times where all we knew is that we had and were creepily right for each other.
But now, I have to live with this and move on. Drinking and sleeping around didnt help much, (even if didnt actually sleep around), because I dont feel a thing.
Only jealousy so ripe and raw, it scalds my tongue and stings my fingers when I try to be happy for our sapphic sisterhood.
I wonder if they know.
When I watched Klaine sing Perfect to Santana, something burst open. Because they have been telling me, I being so like her refused to listen.
What killed me, was you calling me a slut. Because I cannot comprehend that, because I gave you everything, all the patience and all the trust and every single drop of caution I had.
But can I please have my pride back.
(x)
“I think we have great chemistry because we’re both huge nerds, and we’ll both tell you for hours like all the nerdy things that we’ll do, and we’ll do together, and the same Harry Potter this, Star Wars that, stuff that we’re into. So then we kind of bonded over just both being huge geeks.”
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